Monday, February 9, 2009
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my mum bombarded me with a news that lead my world collapsing.
she said that in March, 27 i tink, she'll be undergoing an operation.
is an operation to remove her womb cuz she got a big tumor inside. she muz remove the tumor and check whether tt tumor izit good or bad and whether my mum have cancer or not. i was damn shock when i heard bout it. all the thoughts went into my mind and then i went to my room and cry. i mean what if, really what if, my mum suddenly have cancer. i mean how am i gonna live on my life happily?? she have to undergo many pains to cure cancer, tt's what i noe. im scared tt my mum will suddenly leave me, and i'll be alone with my father and brother. i realise tt i muz be very good to my parents when i still have the time to do so. i cannot stand the thought of my mum leaving me. everytime i think of tt or even see my mum, i feel like crying. i dun dare to cry in front of my mum. i have to ren my crys in front of her and act normally. i seriously can't do it. why can't my mum tell me this another timpe tt my mum will be like aft my CTs and not now. i can feel my heart breaking everytime i see my mum. my mum and dad is like so healthy yet both of them undergo operation before. i jux hoped tt my mum will be healthy aft the operation and will be with throughout the phases of my life and also let me have a chance to take care of her when she's old.
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